You found me when I was finding myself. You chose me at a time I wasn’t sure I should choose me. Not sure of the many things I thought I wanted. I sounded and looked like I knew what I was doing, where I was headed, but my head was lost in a cloud I didn’t see yet.
I gave my all, or so I thought. I drenched myself in the desire to win this one, to see that I won this time. I was smoldering you, killing us quietly. I talked like I knew what I was saying, but my heart was cut open in a lake of pain I didn’t feel.
You said I loved you when I needed to hear it. Too sudden, but It did make a difference. I did desire you, the idea so much so that I forgot to let the sun in.
Dear you, I’ve grown since then. I’ve been growing since then, and I know I am human enough. I know it could have happened differently, but it’s okay. It is happening now.
Dear you, what we had was great, sweet, and painful. Light and tough. The muscle memories are ever fresh. I know better now.
Dear you, don’t find tomorrow for I’m a woman now.